Monday, March 16, 2009

The Equinox Draws Near

and after this sotmr of emotions in my life things will get better I can feel it

today's extended horoscope i just read for LEO

Clear out your schedule and set aside your expectations -- this is going to be a fickle kind of day, and you need to be as flexible as possible. It's a day to toss out the rule book and just let things go along their merry way. You won't be disappointed. But if you struggle against the tide of the day and stubbornly try to stick to what you had planned, you'll experience a lot of frustration. Become more passive, and you will learn an awful lot about the world around you.

it's just the advice I need...this city proves poor for fire signs, a sagg can hang but there is just not enough attention for a poor leo. I will still hold my head up and pretend alot doesn't bother me when it really does and shop and masterbate to ease my mind till things go my way.

I can't wait for the equinox, only a few days away, as spring is time for change and I will finally move forward and see the results of the work I have been doing for winter.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Totes disposable


Intense Talk

Baby Girl X

Jesse on the Unicycle of time

I haven't seen such great art in a long time
i'll upload the rest tomorrow maybe as I am about to go see Mi Ami!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I keep my visions to myself (and on my blog)

So I am really into dreams, analyzing them and drive myself crazy always over what they mean and I believe most are omens. Unfortunately I have an awful memory and try to write everything down if I find it important enough to do so.

I recently had a dream with something that is always re-occurring which is a boy, usually the boy I have a crush, the boy I had a crush on but never got, the boy I dream who will be gay only for me, but never the boy I had cheap sex with once to twice or thrice. But he usually manifests himself in some man that I always have the same feelings for in each dream and will usually change into one of these manifestations more than once in the same dream, and when I wake up even though I usually am aware of most the manifestations of this boy I know exactly which one the dream was actually about.

So this was a dream I had on Sunday
It started on a draw bridge. My clothes were all out of their suitcases spread around me on the bridge (like they are in reality in my room, I usually live out of my suitcases). On the bridge I had the man who operates the bridge yelling at me to get my shit together, I was extremely nervous and rushing to get my shit together. As I am rushing HE shows up to help me. He stays calm, cool and collected, while I panic, frantically gathering my clothes as not to loose all my choice vintage pieces, my skinny jeans and my precious shoes. He watches me while I am scared and the operator man yells at me over and over again, I catch him in the corner of my eye smiling at me. I finally give up and stuff into a backpack the important gifts from my friends; a ring, a necklace, a bracelet, and a shirt from my ex.. I stand to the side with him and he holds my hand as we watch the bridge ascend as my clothes and suitcases slide down into the river that is flowing into an ocean. As it is ascending, the cord snaps and the bridge takes me and swings around.

My dream then transcends me somehow and I don't know where I am going. I don't know where I am going but don't mind as I am sad he is not there.

I feel this dream has some significance because
a) it did not end in sex with him as most of them usually do (usually him manifested as a straight man)
b) whenever the ocean is usually in my dream it is almost always the Pacific and in this one I was sure it was the Atlantic
c) I kept falling in and out of sleep but having the continuous same theme of the dream which is also rare for me.

I need to see a psychic anyways because my life has been to chaotic lately, I have gotten a lot of other advice from various other people through tarot cards horoscopes that both said in the next coming month it will be a very hard month for me in work, moving to my new place, starting my party, releasing my zine, etc. etc... and in doing all this I must learn how to accept criticism in a more welcoming way. I think after all is said and done a vacation back to California is well deserved.
anyways...i will be posting pictures later today from my shitty disposable camera from a party I went too but for now enjoy this

Monday, March 2, 2009

on non-believers...

shuntron (4:22:57 PM): i heard you've been telling people that you're going to put hexes on me?
alex08wc (4:23:04 PM): i already did
shuntron (4:23:16 PM): hahah ok then
shuntron (4:23:23 PM): why can't you just accept that i don't believe in it?
alex08wc (4:23:34 PM): because i will make you a true believer
shuntron (4:23:45 PM): haha ok whatever
shuntron (4:23:56 PM): its just a solution looking for a problem though
shuntron (4:24:12 PM): if magic were real i feel like we would have found some evidence of it in the last couple thousands of years
alex08wc (4:24:49 PM): there has been evidence
shuntron (4:25:02 PM): really? show it to me
alex08wc (4:25:10 PM): i can show you my friend alene
shuntron (4:25:36 PM): thats not documented evidence though
shuntron (4:25:41 PM): thats circumstantial
alex08wc (4:25:50 PM): welllllll
alex08wc (4:25:57 PM): you will see yr evidence soon enough
alex08wc (4:26:03 PM): just wait til the next full moon
alex08wc (4:26:10 PM): and you will be sorry you have been talking so much shit
shuntron (4:26:15 PM): that's not proof
alex08wc (4:26:19 PM): o it will be
shuntron (4:26:37 PM): personal experiences are meaningless unless you can replicate them at will
shuntron (4:26:46 PM): in this context
shuntron (4:27:05 PM): also
shuntron (4:27:11 PM): id like to point out that i wasn't talking shit
shuntron (4:27:12 PM): YOU brought it up
shuntron (4:27:17 PM): and decided that you needed to convert me
alex08wc (4:27:27 PM): you'll get yours young shayne
alex08wc (4:27:32 PM): just wait
shuntron (4:27:54 PM): haha what am i getting? i didn't do anything
shuntron (4:27:58 PM): even if it were real
shuntron (4:28:02 PM): aren't you just being mean?
alex08wc (4:28:25 PM): i bind you shayne from doing harm to yourself and harm to others, i bind you shayne from doing harm to yourself and harm to others
shuntron (4:28:33 PM): hahaha
shuntron (4:28:42 PM): i already told you
shuntron (4:28:44 PM): ive seen that movie
shuntron (4:29:00 PM): omg this is the most high school bullshit
alex08wc (4:29:12 PM): just wait
alex08wc (4:29:16 PM): i already braided yr hair
alex08wc (4:29:18 PM): into mine
alex08wc (4:29:30 PM): so everytime you are mean to me yr hair is gonna fall out
shuntron (4:29:31 PM): ew
shuntron (4:29:39 PM): yeah right
shuntron (4:30:12 PM): alright
shuntron (4:30:20 PM): next full moon is next wednesday at 240
alex08wc (4:30:25 PM): well then
alex08wc (4:30:29 PM): u better prepare yrself
shuntron (4:30:39 PM): oh im sure
shuntron (4:31:10 PM): im sorry i really cant take any of this seriously haha
alex08wc (4:31:12 PM): i will make moccasins out of yr lily white skin
alex08wc (4:31:16 PM): and flutes of yr bones
shuntron (4:31:20 PM): you DO realize that it IS absolutely ridiculous?
alex08wc (4:31:36 PM): you just wait till you see what i have a-brewin
shuntron (4:31:57 PM): haha but you can't prove any of it is real
shuntron (4:32:01 PM): its like believing in jesus
shuntron (4:32:05 PM): in fact, its exactly the same thing
alex08wc (4:32:20 PM): i can prove yr apendages will start falling off next full moon
shuntron (4:32:23 PM): its just a god of the gaps without a literary embodiment
alex08wc (4:32:40 PM): and i will collect yr fingers and make myself a nice necklace
shuntron (4:33:10 PM): then you can use some skin to make yourself a new scrunchie
shuntron (4:33:39 PM): so you can hold your hair back while you play MASH at lunchtime
shuntron (4:36:06 PM): we should talk about something else
alex08wc (4:36:16 PM): why are you getting mad?
shuntron (4:36:16 PM): cause i really cannot take you srsly when you talk about this
alex08wc (4:36:26 PM): or is yr hair starting to fal out cause yr being mean?
shuntron (4:36:34 PM): no its not
shuntron (4:36:39 PM): which just proves how ridiculous this is
alex08wc (4:37:37 PM): i feel it in my bones shayne
alex08wc (4:37:42 PM): yr hair is going to go
alex08wc (4:37:57 PM): and then what use will you have for yr scrunchie collection?
shuntron (4:38:01 PM): maybe when i cut it tonight
shuntron (4:38:07 PM): like i planned on doing
alex08wc (4:38:23 PM): see
alex08wc (4:38:27 PM): my spell is working aready
alex08wc (4:38:32 PM): *already
shuntron (4:39:01 PM): omg no its not ive told you so many times in the last month that i need a hair cut
alex08wc (4:40:16 PM): witches - 1 ...shayne - 0
shuntron (4:40:27 PM): yeah ok whatever